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Little Life Update - Lockdown

So this is all a bit strange ... on our 4th week of lockdown! To be honest, I actually really enjoyed it to start with, getting time to spend with my family that I wouldn’t have had normally, but I think it’s fair to say we’re all getting a bit fed up with it now!! Not helped by the weather changing from nice sunshine last week to rain or the fact that I’m getting ever closer to exams but the mood has definitely changed.
In the first couple of weeks, to make up for some special events we were due to go to but were obviously cancelled, we had a couple evenings all round the table - I cooked a big three course meal, we all dressed up and actually had a good time! Last week, it was dad’s birthday, something to look forward to and celebrate, we tried to make it special for him with our first bbq of the season!! Always a favourite, I made all the trimmings and we had an amazing evening out in the garden!
Right now, we don’t have anything to look forward to, but I’m hoping we will do something like this again soon!
On a daily basis I’m battling with my family. While I love cooking and baking, I love doing it for others, and they don’t understand when I don’t want to eat the stuff I make!!! I’m still struggling with the guilt of eating (although find myself secretly snacking - I’m such a grazer - not helping the situation). Lockdown is most definitely making it worse, not being able to go to the gym is a struggle and while I try to replace this with running , as a cold blooded girl, it’s just tooo cold!! As such my daily step count is achieved stealing breaks in revision and running on the spot, I was lucky to be able to get a new fitness watch when mine broke as without the step counter I would go mad.
While I love baking, I haven’t found time for it in the last week or so, which might be why I’m feeling stressed, I feel guilty taking time away from uni work even if it’s to relax and do the things I enjoy - I’ve got loads of ideas of things I want to make so can’t wait to get back in the kitchen!

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